want a mulberry bayswater cookie soooo bad! :(

Just want to vent my feelings towards you….

Its funny how everything suddenly seems to fall into place, you suddenly realise something you should have done a long time ago. When we first broke up, I was lost, I was at my lowest I really needed you around, yet you went stil… I told myself I’d pushed you away but now I realise that was never the case, if you’d have really loved me, you’d have stayed, no matter what. I think back on the last two years and the times we spent together, yeah they were nice but now I just don’t want to remember. I don’t know whether you changed or if it was you all along. You didn’t love me… I feel sick to think of the promises you made after we broke up, how you didn’t respect me enough to keep them and blatently lied to me. You know, I really trusted you but I was so blind to you. The thing is now, I pined for you so long and it hurt so bad when I found out what you did, tbh I wasn’t surprised, I stopped caring. You will never find someone like me again. Yeah sometimes I still find myself looking at my phone wishing you’d text, but tbh, its not because I want you, its because now, I want you to want me. I want you to realise what you lost and come crawling back only to get hurt, I want you to feel what its like. Soon I’m hoping I won’t even feel like this, I want you gone.

Workworkwork:(

So tired cba:(

Isn’t it amazing how one day you can love someone so much, the next all you feel is anger and hate. I’m not gonna be your doll any longer. I’m done, through with your shit. I feel strong

And I’m getting ready to move on. One day you’ll realise and you will regret this. Love, your ‘psycho ex’.

Day1 of NC.

Feeling okay… Think last night helped, I have no urge right now but we’ll see how the day goes. 2 exams:(((

i know i need to be strong

but, i miss him:(